Friday, October 26, 2012

Felicia Garcia the victim of the system.

In New York a 15 year old girl in the foster care system committed suicide by jumping in front of a train. It is not getting a whole lot of attention from anyone for 2 reasons. She is a minority and she was in foster care.

Just like Amanda Todd, this girl had no one to turn to, or confide it. Because you may know foster parents (or parents for that matter) and have no idea what they are like behind closed doors.

For lack of a better term she was involved in a gangbang with the football team, how disgusting that may sound. And how much she had maybe "done it to herself" why didn't she talk to someone. Why didn't she confide in a school official or go to a psychologist. Yes she had a terrible lapse in judgement, and hormones got the better of her but she should not get ridiculed to the point where they practically force her to jump in front of a train.

http://www.edmontonjournal.com/news/edmonton/Bullied+York+teen+commits+suicide+jumping+front+Staten/7449210/story.html Here is the article

https://twitter.com/feliciagarcia97?tw_i=260578979667402752&tw_e=screenname&tw_p=tweetembed Here is the eerie twitter that you can follow all the way down, see she was troubled. See she was not happy and was clearly bullied far before the sexual altercation.

One of the quotes from her that I think resembles a lot of angst for most people is "just because I am smiling, doesn't mean I am happy". It is just that, she was probably happy on the outside, hid from it. Held a lot of pressure against herself because she felt as if no one cared.

People care, the people she associated with didn't. As far as I know, no one on that football team was punished or issued an apology. No parents contacted, or the foster parents contacted. It is tragic. It is becoming the thing to do. Don't see a way out, don't see a light just end it. I've been there it is not pleasant.

Bullying actions in school are never reprimanded as they should be. They think it is really funny to mess with a persons psyche. They should be expelled from that school to mess with their psyche. Nothing is done to these people. From first hand experience to what is actually put out there on the news.

Again, talk to people, stick up for people. Save some lives and encourage some hope.

When will the bullying stop? When will someone feel the need to make it stop?

I sincerely hope it is soon, and I sincerely hope the hammer is dropped hard on those football players and the people who tormented Amanda Todd. As nothing as happened yet in that case either.

RIP Felicia Garcia

Regards,
Devon

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

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Woke up monday last week feeling like a million bucks, got over my cold and was feeling energized and fresh to death.

Woke up tuesday and felt like death. Over the past 6 days I have suffered through what are the early stages of Mononucleosis, along with that strep throat. I haven't received a call about my blood test so I guess it is 75% certain I don't have mono. Still dealing with strep and the inability to eat a lot. No appetite and energy to do a whole not. I feel like I am lying to myself when I say I don't have the energy to study. I really don't though. I tried, I am helpless, no energy and I don't retain. Studied a bit today, retained none of it. I wish I had the capability still. It is causing much anxiety to my day, my nights. Can't sleep most nights until 3 or 4. I don't plan it, the anxiety and panicky mood just eats at me. It is beginning to eat me alive and affect the mood of those around me.

I was doing so well, was getting some of the best grades and compliments for doing well. I was ecstatic about this year. Now this year represents doom and gloom, anxiety is slowly turning into me being depressed. I want to sleep and wake up and it all be better, the harshness of life is. I am just 8 hours closer to my next midterm and essay. I am playing video games to ease my anxiety, and to just let my body veg out. It is only making me feel more on edge.

I am being a whiny bitch, "that kid is sick, like I've never been sick whilst in school." That's fair, I've never walked a mile in your shoes, you have never walked a mile in my shoes that point outwards when I walk and cause a lot of knee pain, which is only getting worse. My TMJ disorder is at levels never heard of before. Woke up 4 times with a migraine last week. Which is a sign it needs to be dealt with immediately.

I've always said never put school above your health, at this point in my life I have not taken my own advice and it is seriously affecting my day to day interaction and general well being. I am down in the dumps. I can't take my own advice now, that's 2300 dollar debt on me and disappointment to those around me. It would be considered 'giving up' because I got sick for a week. But this is eating me alive, waking up in pain and angst everyday.

Whoever reads this thank you, I appreciate everything. You people represent who I am, who I have helped and made laugh.

Goodnight
Much Love to all,

Regards,

D

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Amanda Todd part 2

As I am bed-ridden with what appears to be

Streptococcal pharyngitis.

I figured it is time to do a follow-up

I have been following the rest of her story quite closely, a soul who was never taught the dangers of the internet. The internet ate her alive for one momentary lapse of judgement.

Would like to thank Anonymous for broadcasting and finding out who the sick perverted man distributing the pictures. As well as any asshats deciding to make bleach joke pictures.

 My biggest issue lies in the fact that the RCMP is being told whom it was, the man runs multiple underage cameras. Even worse he is currently battling a court case for exposing a 16 year old. But they are hesitant to use this information, and the interrogation appeared to have worked in favour of the creepy old man. As he left the court room he was interviewed. It wasn't him it was a person he knows, who goes by Viper. Which is interesting because couldn't that be his internet handle?

He's fighting the case for the 16 year old, and you can damn well bet he has child pornography somewhere on his personal computers. He has distributed in the past and didn't exactly deny that. 

 

My question lies in the interview itself... If he has distributed child pornography why aren't you arresting him for that alone and launch the investigation while in police custody. Instead of letting him walk without a sex offender tag and the ability to possibly leave the country. Enough is enough with these sick sons of bitches. The internet is a very fickle thing. You bark up the wrong tree and you aren't going to like the result. Internet safety is something that has never been addressed. Because, having documented proof of everyone on the internet is an invasion of privacy. I'd rather that, than children being abducted, raped, photographed, and distributed or even sold. I'd rather they have a list of everyone's computer so hate crime and homophobia can be dealt with. It starts with the internet, something too powerful for capable people.

 Amanda Todd is gone now, unfortunately, and yes people saying there is people in worse situations are somewhat true. Her case represents something so much bigger than 1 lost life to suicide. It speaks to the internet community and how we function individually and collectively. It should be used as a teaching tool in schools everywhere. There are girls being abducted from chat room use and just meeting through facebook.

 Where does it all stop? My generation enjoys the internet, but I remember time before the internet, 'don't talk to strangers' no matter what they say about your family or bribes'. That no longer resonates through the Information Super Highway. In fact, People enjoy flirting with danger for the anonymity. It isn't worth it, for anyone. As we lost a kind soul, and there is going to be more to follow if online predators are not dealt with.

 Internet safety is a must for your children.

Regards,

Devon.

I suck at formatting. 

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

I'm an asshole

Asshole

 Here is an insult towards, me. I am on facebook for 2 things, to creep and to keep in contact with people worth keeping in contact with. The sheer brilliance of an insult to hit me with something about facebook is staggering. How does one even come back? You got me, on a public forum trying to mess around. I don't quite understand why people bitch about other people on Facebook and do the same thing 3 hours later, the god damned site is toxic. 

I am an asshole, you know why? There are ungrateful people who roam this Earth, with no sense of self-worth no concept of how other people live their lives.

Minding my own business on a public forum that you post nonsensical power to the people horse manure is, well hilarious. I wish that people understood the concept of public forum. You post it for all to look at and comment or come back. Just as I write these someone can comment whatever the hell they want, would I care or think less of you? Probably not, but I certainly wouldn't try to degrade you to the lowest form of  internet stupidity.

It is not hard to understand how these things work, you create an account, add people you could not give a shit about. Laugh at their stupid statuses, tell people what other people said on facebook and leave it at that. Life was a lot simpler before social networking. I miss that, social networking brings in bullying, and immaturity to levels not seen before.

Why bother even saying anything back to you calling me some arbitrary name when we have spoken all of 5 times in my life? Give me a god damned break with that unbelievable, inconceivable, amalgamation of a sentence you tried to hurl at me. I'm not on this Earth to please people who do jack shit. It becomes redundant that people on any social media platform expect some kind of respect because you are within the same website.

There are people in my life I care about, that I would do anything for. That I would talk to at any moment at the drop of a hat. Then there are people on there who amuse me.

Regards,

Devon
  

Sunday, October 14, 2012

Amanda Todd, bullying needs to stop

Well, I've been putting this one off for quite some time.

You may have or may have not heard the story and wondered if I was going to write on it. As it connects close to home.

That is the thing, it way too close to home.

First things first. 2 questions.

Why wasn't a name change request put forward for her?
Why wasn't the authorities called?

Alas, those are what ifs. What did happen was we lost a kind soul. A soul who was willing to help almost anyone. Which in turn got her in far too much trouble. Into the wrong chat room, one lapse in judgement equaled 3 years of shitstorm rained upon her. Why a 12 year old is flashing anyone is beyond me. I wish no harm on people, no blackmail or extortion. We witnessed the harsh realities of the world on such a young person. A person ill-equipped for the role she was handed.

I sincerely wish it opened some eyes of the cyber bullies out there. I somewhat supported CISPA for this simple reason. To save lives. Save anxiety and depression for people trying to get some Yucks on a Friday night. None of it was needed, none of the savage beating or her showing her boobs to begin with. Bullies project their own insecurities on those around them Jealousy and the hunger for fame/infamy got the better of everyone involved.

It is instances like these that stop me in my life, wherever I am and realize how trivial what you are doing is in the end. Or if that anxiety is something you should be feeling. She ate it for breakfast, lunch and dinner.

She didn't say a damned thing to no one. Which is what really hurts. Everyone got their share attacking her, she had no one to turn to (with separated parents). She had no one, she openly admits it in her video. Not a single person supported her, talked to her, cared enough to glance at her unless throwing a fist at her. Enough is enough people, bullying needs to end.

I urge you to talk to anyone who looks/feels down. Save a damn life from the horrors of depression, caused from depression or otherwise.

200,000 2 million or 2 billion users can be behind/with her now. But, it is too little too late. This is where you hug your loved ones extra tight. You don't know how they feel, or they know how you feel.

I'm sorry Amanda Todd, I wish things were different for you.

Rest In Peace, no more bullies can get to you.

Regards,
Devon

Friday, October 12, 2012

Alright, Beliebers you took it too far

As I have written before, Rick Rypien has had a huge affect on the decision to talk about my anxiety.

Well, Justin (shitface) Bieber toured Canada recently, I think? Who cares,

Anyways a bunch of morons, one being named Simram Mann, or wolfram alpha or some shit.

Decided "OmG, I'm at biebs, I want his half hard, bald penis inside of me, while he high pitch squeals his way to an orgasm." All the while singing " I don't want a baby, baby, baby, nooo."

Anyways this sigfried ralpha decided it was time to make her name known and tell everyone in Vancouver she was at Rogers arena to see him. So, she took a permanent marker and wrote her name, the date of whatever shitshow was about to happen. And what I can only assume is her number a bunch of hearts and a picture of her 12 year old face for Justin Bieber to make Paper Mache out of. (if he can produce semen from his ovaries).

What ramjam didn't know is that, the wall she had wrote her forgettable, and regrettable message on was the Rick Rypien memorial wall. Filled will hockey fans messages of love and appreciation for what he did for hockey and depression depression sufferers.

Simbanam has since received death threats and removed her twitter and hopefully changed her name, because I am running out of phony names that sound similar.

What would possess a human being, at any facet to go to a Bieball's concert and to write about it anyways. Go there, realize wow that machine really helps his voice change and move on.

Stigman ram barked up the wrong tree. That is too personal for many Canadians. I sincerely hope one crazy person doesn't kill her or something. But, I do hope that taught her, and her beliebing friends a lesson in not being a fucking moron.

Thanks, rammamsinsamsnam, for defacing something that meant so much to me, and everyone else in Canada.

Some of the responsibility lies on Justin Bieber to issue an apology for the people who aren't his fans. The people who coexist with the puke, he should have to apologize on behalf of both of them.
I will enjoy every minute of the day that Bieber becomes non-relevant.

Article here http://www.torontosun.com/2012/10/11/justin-bieber-fans-deface-rick-rypien-memorial

Regards, Devon

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

Advantages and drawbacks to the new arena

Anyway, what are some of the advantages and drawbacks to the oilers for the new arena?

Benefits far outweigh the drawbacks. In Canada we experience such multiculturalism in our sports it has become a custom for many other families to bring in hockey to their childrens lives. Canada eats sleeps and breathes hockey. The current lockout will tell you that, every Canadian who watched hockey every saturday night now is off to find something else to do. They all say 'how am I going to survive without it.'

In Edmonton specifically, the new arena would bring about revitalization like you wouldn't believe. It would revitalize the city, the fans, the players, it would put edmonton as a destination for players who wish to be traded or free agents. At 16,839 for a seating capacity it is damn near impossible to get into a hockey game. Unless you are willing to pay through the teeth for a nosebleed ticket. 16,839 is in the bottom 5 for seating capacity around the league. In Canada that is a very large problem. For social programs or youth groups to get into a game, they have to wait weeks and usually end up seeing sub-par teams.What the new arena proposes is somewhere around 22,000 seats. Which would leave about 12,000 to the general public to be able to get down to the arena and enjoy a game. For an affordable price. It would gain much more of a fan base for the paycheque to paycheque families to be able to treat their young son to a hockey game.

New clubhouse would be a very nice draw for the team, reporters and cameramen would have the room to be able to interview players. It wouldn't look old and dingy. It would look modern and appealing. The biggest problem with Rexall place is the dinginess. It is old, falling apart, it is not aesthetically appealing in the slightest.  New restaurants and new business opportunities from foreign investment would be huge. Would create more jobs, more tourism and economic growth.

In 2006, the Edmonton Oilers put together their best 'team' season since the 1984-1990. They worked as a team, they functioned as a team. Defensemen looked out for their goalies. What that season did for the city is beyond words. Every weekend 20 somethings talk about going drinking on Whyte Ave. Well, in 2006 Whyte Ave was the only place to drink, and during away games the only place that mattered. Whyte Ave experienced a surge in economic growth, fans were happy, bartenders were happy. The city had a special Aura around it. It gave a reason for the city to believe. Believe in something as ridiculous as sports, when important political issues were going on. Cars had flags, people wearing hats, couldn't move 2 feet without seeing an oiler jersey. Fast forward 6 years

Those days are long gone. People have lost faith, nobody is surprised when the oilers lose. Nobody is proud of the team, or the house that gretzky built anymore. Optimism about hockey is lacking a pulse.

The arena could bring about that same hope that cup run did. It will bring back optimism, it'll fill the seats, they will experience the best merchandise sales. It will revitalize the downtown core, and move the eye sores that are currently plopped down. Businesses will thrive around the area of workers, and fans about to head to the game. Commute would be ridiculously easy because there are 10 buses at any given time going downtown. The LRT can get you down there in little to no time at all. It would put Edmonton back on the map in infrastructure terms, too. Businessmen, scouts, international travelers would come about just to see this hi-tech arena. After all, nobody in Ottawa would say 'we need to go see the Sens play the Oilers at Rexall Place, I hear that you haven't seen a hockey game until you have been in that arena.'

Potential drawbacks would be - the people who refuse to take transit and need to drive. It could potentially clog up the downtown streets. The money that it is being used for, may be spent better somewhere else. The constant lying about price, and the repeated changes to the blueprint makes everyone a little skeptical. 

This is Canada though, this is hockey. Edmonton needs a new arena, as every other Canadian team has upgraded and experienced a much better work environment, and much more revenue. The area that Rexall is in is one of the dirtiest places in the City. The arena could bring cleanliness to downtown and inject a new fuel for making our city more pleasant to visit.

Enough is enough, build the arena please. The Oilers could never leave Edmonton, that is just not feasible in my mind. The city will see some of the revenue of the new arena.

If the city can pay 500,000-800,000 for a pile of chrome balls to put on a side of a road, why can't we put money towards a new identity for the city.

Sincerely, A hockey fan.

Regards,
Devon